i'm a hazard to myself

i'm tired and angry with my father. he never knows about anything that happens in the house but he never accepts that he can be wrong sometimes... sometimes i'd like to live somewhere far away from everyone. i guess that's why mother calls me misanthropic. it used to hurt but now i just shrug it off- it's become an habit.the thing about parents is that they are never satisfied. they say they hear you but in the end they never do. i don't want to be like that ever. probably one of the reasons i don't wanna get hitched!i just want a break sometimes... this poem speaks to me , maybe it'll do something for you too:i am by John Clarei am-yet what i am no one cares or knows;my friends forsake me like a memory lost:i am the self-consumer of my woes-they rise and vanish in oblivion's hostlike shadows in love-frnzied stifled throesand yet i am, and live- like vapours tostinto the nothingness of scorn and noiseinto the living sea of waking dreamswhere there is neither sense of life or joys,but the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;even the dearest that i love the bestare strange- nay, rather, stranger than the resti long for scenes where man has never troda place where woman never smiled or weptthere to abide with my Creator, Godand sleep as i in childhood sweetly sleptuntroubling and untroubled where i liethe grass below- above, the vaulted sky

i'm neve...

i'm never ever getting into a decent uni. plus i still suck at htmls!

i'm still w...

i'm still wondering how i add someone to my friends list.... why am i not a computer genius? why? why?

i feel like mold

I’ve done a stupid thing again! Why can’t I ever get these fucking htmls right? This time I managed to use marquee for the whole of my post in the ihategwb comm.. it looks horrible and I’m mortified. I’ve already reveived responses and they were not very pleasant!!The good thing is that I’ve got myself a new pal- ashism. She’s really cool and we actually share the same men!lol! now I feel less bizarre and you know what? It’s a great feeling!Just phoned porky x5_536 and she was still sleeping. She’s the only one who can help me correct the mess I made with the marquee stuff… sometimes, I wonder what I would do without porky. She’s a great friend though I’ve never said this to her… but I’m sure she knows how I feel, don’t you porcupine? I guess she’s the one I’ll miss the most when we’ll have to go our different ways….

i'm having p...

i'm having probs with this thing again. am soo glad. see porky, i'm not the only dj obsessed person on earth! anD I DO NOT KISS MY SCREEN LIKE SOME PPL DO!

i'm pissed!!!

Thursday 13th february 200311:20Just finished writing what I’ll be posting in [Bad username: “ihategwb” comm. Now I can get bored again. Actually I’ve been reading poetry. Never thought I’d become a poetry fan- I even miss the English lit classes where we used to study Blake!! Last night I was so cold(cos there was a cyclone and the winds were real strong), I couldn’t sleep. Must be because my bed is too large. And fantasizing about dj sleeping next to me didn’t help either-sniff… So I went to my sisters’ room and settled myself next to my big sis, mag. What a horrible experience. I got shoved and poked all night! Am definitely sleeping in my bed tonight, dj or no dj!The cyclone’s gone now and I hope that they’ll all be going to work tomorrow. I like having my family at home but not when we have such crappy weather and everyone has to remain indoors. I just hope I don’t sound too childish or selfish…Just found a great comm( can’t remember the name) which I’m definitely joining. Now I’ll have someone to tell my more than bizarre dreams.18:28I’m reeeeellllyyy annoyed at my little sis, wen! She can be such an asshole. She’s ben using the internet connection for god knows how long and when I tell her to hurry up she gets so annoyed as if whatever I have to do is nothing compared to what she’ sdoing. I’m never that rude so why the hell can’t she make an effort to act nice!!!!!!!I want to hit someone. Anyone will do!!![Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<fontface=”arial>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]Thursday 13th february 200311:20Just finished writing what I’ll be posting in <lj comm= “ihategwb”> comm. Now I can get bored again. Actually I’ve been reading poetry. Never thought I’d become a poetry fan- I even miss the English lit classes where we used to study Blake!! Last night I was so cold(cos there was a cyclone and the winds were real strong), I couldn’t sleep. Must be because my bed is too large. And fantasizing about dj sleeping next to me didn’t help either-sniff… So I went to my sisters’ room and settled myself next to my big sis, mag. What a <b>horrible</b> experience. I got shoved and poked all night! Am definitely sleeping in my bed tonight, dj or no dj!The cyclone’s gone now and I hope that they’ll all be going to work tomorrow. I like having my family at home but not when we have such crappy weather and everyone has to remain indoors. I just hope I don’t sound too childish or selfish…Just found a great comm( can’t remember the name) which I’m definitely joining. Now I’ll have someone to tell my more than bizarre dreams.18:28I’m reeeeellllyyy annoyed at my little sis, wen! She can be such an asshole. She’s ben using the internet connection for god knows how long and when I tell her to hurry up she gets <i>so</i> annoyed as if whatever I have to do is nothing compared to what she’ sdoing. I’m never that rude so <b>why the hell can’t she make an effort to act nice!!!!!!!</b>I want to hit someone. Anyone will do!!!<fontface=”arial black”size=”14”>I hate it when ppl piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!</font>

i forgot what ...

i forgot what i wanted to say..oh teah- i finally found someone who thinks dj is as wonderful as i think he ie- porky, beware!!!

cyclone classe 2!

tis morning there was a cyclone warning class one and now it's class 2! this means there will probably be power cuts. how great:(((i hate cyclones cos i never ever have anything to do- i sleep and eat all day, and i have to bear my mom's paranoia. she worries about everything and it annoys the hell out of me. that's why i'd love to go abroad!

kjgrwetyriguvbhjkvgiasgfljhg!!

i'm tired but then that's becoming a permanent factor... went to porky's user today. we just sat there, checking on our emails and making gwb speeches. i really hate that guy. he's not only stupid- he's ugly, a liar, ugly, stupid UGLY!!! how did he become president anyway?!!apart from that porky and i yawned a lot- a typical day... i guess we were both kinda bored and lethargic. good thing i didn't fall asleep in the bus!!

am gonna puke

the results are already im mtius and i'm fucking worried. last night i peed at least 6 times before 'sleeping'.hope the others are doing ok.hell!hell!hell!and i sure as hell hope it won't rain or i'll be even more depressed.i will summon dj to bless me with courage...A-dj!

just checking on...

just checking on dj

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i was trying to update on stargate talker , but failed. as usual

I HATE MONDAYS!

Sunday 9th of February 200323:49normally people are asleep at this time, but since the results are coming tomorrow and I know I’ll probably be plagued by horrible nightmares- why bother trying?Also have to get my stupid poems to porky[Bad username: “x5_536”. I hope I did this right cos there’s something wrong with these:”” … I can’t seem to be able to bend them the other way!(oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh! This is how you do that!!)So here I am, getting totally bored. Waiting for midnight to arrive so my life’ll get a bit interesting. Did I say I have become an addict to stargate slash fanfic? I dunno whether to laugh or cry out in frustration(and maybe jealousy) when reading about dj getting laid… its just that he’s being pictured as an intergalactic slut instead of the babe he really is in these stories. Some of them are pretty hilarious though. Like the one where we learn that Janet calls her vibrator Teal’c or Daniel depending on her mood… or the one where Major Davis is acting like a starved nymphomaniac…When I first met youMy head went ‘hum’But then you dumped me with a ‘boum!’And my ass went ‘shlroom!’ (with diarreah)You make me sickDiarreah and constipationHysterics and depressionI can’t believe I let you Turn me into sucha slobIt Vill never happen again!So fuck Valentine’s day!Go flush these cards awayJust save me the chocolate heartsSo I’ll be pimply and uglyAnd no guy(except if reeeeeeely desperate) will ever look at meWhen I fall in loveWhen I fall in love, it will be foreverI will see your face And your movements full of graceTo me you will look like a supermodelThough you’ll more likely be like a trollBut I’ll never find you drollAnd will always want to be your belleMaybe you’ll be horribly fatMaybe you’ll smell like a sewer ratMaybe you’ll have only rotten teethMaking your mouth constantly reekBut I will not careCoz to me, it’ll be the perfume that you wearWhat if you act like a monkey? And have teeth like a donkey?I’ll love you anywayAnd tolerate you, come what mayI tried with all my mightBut I just can’t get it rightI don’t understandWhy yours refuses to bendMine is big and malleableThough you insist small is more pleasurableI caress mine when I’m in bedSometimes till it turns bright redIt’ll swell when being held real tight And never give up without a fightIt will work all day and nightIt will always make my mornings brightNow that you know of all its featsAccept that I have the most beautiful feet!Wank and scratchfinger, ruler, pen or forkI’ve tried it all but noyhing’ll workI just end upgettingg itchyBut never manage to get hornySometimes I think I’m a frigid galOr maybe I need help from a palEven my friends are taking betsOn whether I’ll ever get wetPaint brushes make me scratchyAnd bamboo sticks hurt me like hellI go to bed at night but can’t sleep wellWith stuck cardboard pieces, sleep don’t come easySometimes I wwonder if I’ve not cut my clitGranny’s scissors must have torn it to bits!

yadda yadda 2

this is the second time i do this. at least, it's giving me something to do. as i said, i'm bored and alone and traumatised. the thing is, i watched the movie Stargate and now i can't seem to be able to picture dj in my mind... instead, i see the other geek!!!he's not bad , but nxt to dj, he's dirt!

i feel ...

i feel like mould. just read porky's entries and now i feel bad. why do i need results anyway? can't i just live without exams? i'd rather live in my fantasy world(with dj, of course)than risk getting out and be labelled as a stupid, good for nothing bitch. that's exactly what happens in my nightmares!

my body hurts

i'm alone at home again. hear that? it's called silence- no annoying brats calling out 'miss!!'it was quite a good experience but extremely tiring...right now i feel like doing something, but what?????i still have not fully understood how that live journal stuff works, plus porky made dj look huge in my backgrond. poor dj. so cute but then so BIG!!!

my feet are hurting

today was my last fucking day as a replacement teacher. i am never gonna be a teacher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!at leat i got good news... STARGATE IS BACK!!!! so porky? my obsession is back!i love d.j!!!!!!!!!!

my ass hurts

Friday 31st of January 200316:48Today was my first day as replacement teacher and it was also the most boring day of my life, if not the most traumatising… teachers… a strange species. I never thought my teachers could laugh so loudly and act so much like adolescents. When I first set foot in the staff room, I swear the male teachers broke into a diabolical laughter!Maybe I’m paranoid. Ohwell, I’ll be done on Monday. Let’s hope I’ll get out of this alive.

daniel jackson

here he is. enjoy.p.s. x5_536 updating for boobinflation. hence the difference in time [i think boobinflation has wrongly set her computer clock!] and the backdate entry.

i am an obsessed and bored bitch who can't use HTMLs

Thursday 30th of January 200316:11I think I’ve lost my mind for good now. I mean, how many people do you know who count their public humiliations(I’m currently up to 125), agree to play teacher at their old school, and vow a sort of cult for a sci-fi series character… am I making any sense here? I really should stop obsessing about Daniel Jackson.(did I get the fucking HTMLs good?)NO!! I won’t do that- he’s too gorgeous… just look at him! I need something to do. I hate being alone at home cos all I do is be self-pitying and staring at the pictures of GORGEOUS D.J! I don’t even have someone to make fun of, plus writing wicked verses on Bush gets sort of tiring – he’s not exactly an exciting character…Hell, I don’t even wanna wank. What the heck is wrong with me?

this is the 6th time i try to update that thing!!

Monday 27th of January 200316:58 I am trying to read a slash stargate fanfic involving O’neil and Daniel Jackson, without much success. I’m not even halfway through cos I’m finding the situation being described VERY hard to imagine. Besides, it’s very hard to concentrate on reading material which involves gay sex with your parents sitting right behind you!!I keep minimising the window in case my father casts a glance at my computer screen and finds me out. To make matters worse, daddy actually watches Stargate in MY company every week so he’ll have absolutely no problem in guessing who the story is about… I wonder when I’ll have the occasion to post this on my live journal. Maybe the day I learn to use it without help from skye (soory, porky, dunno how to create that link-or-something-you-showed-me to get to your journal… am I making any sense here??????!!)17:36my,oh, my! I really don’t know what to say!!I don’t think I’ve laughed so hard for a long time. I really cannot believe people would actually match Daniel with jack! Not that I have any probs with gay sex or whatever, but Daniel and Jack? P-L-E-A-S-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The idea of such a thing actually happening is too funny to contemplate. If anyone has more of these fanfic and stuff send them over cos I’m curious to know what people have actually invented about sg-1…Wednesday 29th of January 200317:49feel really annoyed right now. Have attempted to update live journal about FOUR times without success. At first I had forgotten my password but when I finally logged in there was absolutely no way I could update the whole thing. Dunno when I’ll be posting this. Tomorrow maybe?Thursday 30th of January 200312:54this time I really did it! Does the word ‘stupid’ ring any bells? that’s ME!! I just accepted to replace a teacher at my old school for only one day and I’m scared almost out of my pants… why did I do that??? Why do I always have to be soooo nice????

hello, anyone got pix of daniel jackson?